♡☆★MY ✿◕‿◕✿ DIARY☆★♡ 海外的日记本☆★♡

Ange1ica

= =ls好快
T T前一阵大发灵感用法语写了一篇日记[||||]居然没显示出来 现在不会写了。。
AP SCORES ARE IN!!!
1科是在预料之内，2科比想象中的好[不可思议]
记得当时考完了大哭一场，认为一定考砸了- - 如果知道是这样当初不是白哭了？- -bb
SAT的成绩也到手了。。自己觉得很满意，老妈却让我再考一次，还报名了PRINCETON REVIEW COURSE,而且还是开学了以后再上|||||
SIGH....本来准备再考考ACT的，既然是这样的话就不提这茬就好了- -o

Ange1ica

下个星期national mao convention - -o兴奋中
昨天把所需的医院义工的50个小时做完了，居然这么早，没想到阿。at last, T T je ne l'ai pas vu......[dont ask]
昨天收到微积分的ap成绩， 还在兴奋中。。很想知道今年的线是多少[ 搞不好是30%]
下个星期会好好玩的**

Ange1ica

meh, up to here I didnt like the book that much though u hear everywhere, man , that's a good book. maybe it's just me, i'm lacking of understanding of the book?
but still, i have to finish it. It has been a week now ...orz.. a book of 253 pages should not take that long at all- -o
It's all about bunches of ppl who have no life after WWI, wandered around aimlessly.[drunks]...euh,....i'll continue to read anyways..
maybe i just cannot understand, life, u can restart it, can you? after failures, after disasters, if u r still alive, that's the chance that God is giving you to re-start. "Reborn," i like that word- - Take your chance and start a new life..Even primitive men had their lives im pretty sure they were more bored that u= =
this is just too sad. Everytime when it comes they wander aimlessly AGAIN, it always makes me feel bad. sigh.. this is just a book, but I'm pretty sure he was like that too.

pshhhhhhh, school...school... perhaps this is something more important to me.. i have to finish the book..70 more pages... still..........= =



ps 肚肚的心情MS很好啊^^

[ 本帖最后由 Ange1ica 于 2007-7-26 12:54 编辑 ]

Ange1ica

the SGA president called me today..
i was like..hello?
he: can i speak with xxxxx?
me: yea..who is this?
he.: xxxxx
me: who?
he:xxxxx
me:ha? wrong number?
he: this is xxxx
[who is that?]
he: I"m ur SGA　President!
me: xxooxxooooxxxxx [feel like an idiot]

so many needs of help for orientation..= =im going for all 3 days..but yeah, NHS+BETA+SGA..i need a way there

Ange1ica

我的research paper的题目真的是囧囧囧囧囧囧囧啊
星期二就交了 我写的前5篇都是cr*p啊
要挂了

Ange1ica

为什么他也要做Descartes.........
我要学习超过他他他

不超过他枉为女生！！

Ange1ica

有很多事情为什么怎样都无法理解呢？
在没有搞清之前就承认了？ 后果。。我害怕

Ange1ica

原帖由 圣洁如蘭 于 2009-8-16 23:54 发表
2009.08.17

楼上萌萌抱住~~
我错了，我好久没来了~~
那啥，问个问题，那个用英语写日记的帖子没有了吗... ...
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这里就是可以用英文写呀。
Mel也会回复你的。

我很笨。真的不明白事宜。别人说什么都听不懂。

Ange1ica

女孩都是這麼傻么？因為喜歡的人說句好聽的話，然後可以去守候一天-

Ange1ica

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Ange1ica

我不想做那些超出我能力以外的事。
我不想走出那個comfort zone.
爲什麽長大了就有那麼多我不想做卻又必須做的事
爲什麽我那麼喜歡給自己壓力
爲什麽我一碰到難題就會想哭

這個年末一點也不開心。2011年，我一點也不期待

Ange1ica

我不想怨別人。一切都是自己的氣度不夠
我需要的是讓自己更好些
還有臉上的痘痘到底是不是過敏啊！！

Ange1ica

i wish I can be like kay, such an independent woman. I know a lot guys do not like her cuz she was so strong. But she was able to not care and not get bothered by anyone else. No one can alter her opinion on things that she believe; yet she is not stubborn, she takes true advices to heart.

Cheating.. everyone is cheating. Yet i felt at a disadvantage for not to cheat. Such a bad mind, I should cheat too if I can? Just admire their courage to decisde to cheat. I was just scared to get caught or I would cheat?...

Kay wouldn't. pssshh, I despise myself.

Ange1ica

我更覺得我像一個傻子。是 這麼多年我一直是一個人 是 我充滿了不安 是 我有你可以利用的價值. 曾經那麼的期待變成了這種種的懷疑和不信任。我不知道這路還能走多遠，雖然只短短的一周，可是我早已覺得我就是在抗著一個巨大的十字架艱難的前行著。過去的真的過去了。想了多少年都好，原來人 最終是要放下的

Ange1ica

他走了 安息吧
我會記得你
家人都會
我知道你在那邊的世界會過得很好的
18年後一定又是一條好漢
謝謝你曾經的出現

with love, forever and ever

qq

Ange1ica

分了吧.好短 其實才3個月。不過真的好久沒有愛上什麽人了。以前都是短短的沒有認真的珍惜過。自己果然變得自私醜陋。是吧，這三個月從來沒有主動找過他，每天兩個電話，每週的歌，每次短信都是他先發來, 讓他感到沒有自我了吧。可是真的，忘記怎麼愛了。 但是自己真的很難過，每次他有什麽，都好緊張，都睡不好覺。上次他胃痛，因為自己沒法幫他 自己一天一夜都沒有過好。可惜，自己不會表達自己，沒法讓他感受到。算了，這次冷戰我也不想好了。讓他早點醒吧，我不值得.

Ange1ica

i'm too exhausted in this relationship.perhaps i'm not a relationship person. hopefully I'm over with this. too much of a nice guy to me that I'll regret and miss him. But NO, he's not. Sometimes I don't approve of what he does, he was only SO nice to me, and it didn't last too long.
i wonder how he could last so long with his ex.. LOL maybe they are the same kind of people. I dwelt on the past too much. i know. But i'm just a moron and I cared way too much; it made me into a different person.
so it's not too much of a healthy relationship. I dont' know if I've learned something.
Even if he's a good guy, I can't have all the good guys. Don't worry, he is just not belong to you. Thinking about my exex, he was wayyyyyyyy much of a nice person and a great friend, but you lost him too.
lol story of life.

so moving on, then i'm bugged by SO MUCH SCHOOLWORK that i dont' feel motivated enough, as always. it's just part of me that's really sad i guess, just too focused on my top priorities and been driven by them. I missed all the fun that was along the way.
I think in a way, i'm jealous. Jealous of the glamorous side of people, though i can't see their dark sides.

I think it's fair. You need to have the courage and determination to explore, challenge, and start the adventures.

"someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason."
I. HAVE. FAITH

Ange1ica

我不想知道 接下来会怎样
我知道 我陷住了 动不了了
一开始一份让家里人骄傲的工作OFFER 现在不断的念头就是辞职。只有6个月罢了，但是失望的更是漫漫长路 没有出头
我不开心 让我stuck在那里不是我想要的
每个人都死也不愿意去的地方，大家不是傻瓜，没人去是有道理的

走到哪里都可以再开始。只是会比别人晚一步。人生漫漫 这些会越来越淡
孤注一掷跟大老板打的赌 输了就输了，我还很年轻。

这个时候不去赌做什么? i break the rules so i don't care!

这么大的地方 如果我不照顾好自己，那么没有人会照顾我的。

Ange1ica

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Ange1ica

我懂 缘分没法勉强的。
明天去坎昆。于是发现最近总是在奔波...

我需要静下心来学习。one last chance in life.